Thursday, December 15, 2005

"I feel like...

...you dont want me around"
"No" (yes, but only in part)

"...you aren't trying any more and sometimes you want me to just give up and leave, so you dont have to"
"No" (am I that obvious?)

"I don't understand why you dont want to at least try with me"(I think I've been trying for years, whats new now other than a momentary exertion on your part?)

"Didnt you ever love me?"
"Of course" (What do you think keeps me - and in a strange sense drives me away - all the time? Do I risk becoming resentful & angry by sticking it out? Or do I cut and live out the numerous consequences, and risk realizing the err? Do I "stay" to have things get better just for the moment? Or will they actually "improve"? Or do I "leave" and come to terms with "they werent that bad" or "its just the norm"? Or is the grass actually greener on the other side?)

[You just can't beat better character development. NYT Bestsellers here I come]

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On another [un?]related note:Evil I am convinced is the best under the guise of "good". It is even more so, when it can penetrate, damage and destroy, and then leave its victim wanting more. The gigantic, evil, fire breathing dragon or bloody demon is easy to spot, and as such, at least you know where the enemy is. The seemingly innocent, downtrodden, wounded, frail, etc. that master this initial description can effect a larger whole.

1 Comments:

At 4:31 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I will never give up and leave. Sometimes I get tired but I love you more than anything; you mean more to me than anything in this world could. I believe things can get better and stay better because I love you and I will do what I have to to make our lives be what they should be. I love you so much and I always will.

 

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